Week is going better

hi all,
Just wanted to let you know that this week is a little better. I have tracked my points all but yesterday...and didn't eat very well yesterday or today, but I have done some activity every day and been eating better in general, so that is good.

WW ice cream- bought some mint chocolate chip today, it's expensive but good.

I won't be able to weigh in on Saturday; I'm still debating on whether to weight in tomorrow or not.

Gained 1.8

Weighed in...gained 1.8. I was sad but not shocked. I'm writing every bite down so far, which is good for me.

Fake It Until You Make It

I was going to title this blog, I don't want to weigh in. My weigh ins are Saturday morning. I picked this so that my husband and I could still go on a date Saturday evening without me freaking out about my weight.

But, today my parents came into town and I used that as my excuse to be bad. I ate out for 2 of my meals, drank a regular soda, and snacked (though on low-point food) WAYYYYYY to much.

So, I don't want to weigh in.

But, as I was typing it I remembered something a friend told me several months ago. She is part of a Yahoo support group that is on WW and one of the lady's was saying, Fake it until you make it.

From my understanding she was saying, focus on the good of the week. Talk about what you have learned, what you have done well, what you know is right, rather than focusing too much on what you have done wrong.

I'm not saying that you shouldn't face up to your week and your mistakes, but I think too often we concentrate on those things.

So, what I did well:
I worked out 3 days...once on my elliptical, once on my new bike, and once taking a long walk with my son. I tracked my points 6 days. I tried new, low-point snacks that I was afraid I wouldn't like.

What have you done well?

Ahhh Yes

Ahh Yes, prayer.

You were right on Krissie.

I used to pray all the time. Driving, walking in the halls at school, sitting at my computer at work. But, as I've gotten married and had a child, and have gotten busy, I have forgotten what my anchor should be.

I have faced a lot of hard questions about prayer. And I must say I do not know all the answers, but I can say I need prayer.

Thank you for the reminder.

Two Things Need to Happen

My husband and I have discussed trying for our 2nd child a lot. I would like to start trying soon. A while ago we had decided that when our first was a year we would try again. Our son is almost 10 months old.

When he was 6 months old I said, I want to loose 30 lbs before I get pregnant again. I have 6 months to do that, no problem.

I still weigh the same and I have 2 months left.

I didn't really have a difficult pregnancy, but I did have gestational diabetes and a lot of back pain that I had to go to a physical therapist for. I'm hoping that loosing weight will relieve some of that pain.

The other thing...I would like to be able to stay at home with our kids. I'm not sure I can find a babysitter for 2 little ones that we can afford. Jason is hoping to be full-time at the end of the year, but that is not certain.

So, two things needs to happen, Jas needs to be able to work full-time (most likely), but, the one thing I have control over, my weight, needs to go down before we have another little one.

I love my son and would love to have another...I've been writing down names:). I hope those names will keep me anchored in my journey.

What are your anchors?

Quaker Oats Snacks

This is just a quick post to tell you about some good, quick breakfast items I have found. Quaker Oats is making some "on-the-go" snacks now that are pretty yummy. They have a good source of fiber and protein in them. Just watch your points. Some are 4 points, some are 3, some are 2. They are in the aisle with Nutrigrain bars and things like that. I currently have a breakfast bar (4 points) that is cinnamon and brown sugar...warm it up 10 secs and it is YUMMY. I also am trying blueberry breakfast bars (2 points) that are good too, a little smaller.

They have breakfast cookies too that I haven't tried yet, but as my weight watchers leader said, there is just something about having the words "breakfast" and "cookie" together that makes them sound oh-so-good;).

Track points and have a great day!
Sara

In Between My Ears

I was going for 16 weeks at Weight Watchers. 16 consecutive weeks. But, as I was getting closed I became very discouraged at the fact that I weighed the same as I did when I started.

I didn't want to have 16 weeks of yo-yo weight recorded that didn't go anywhere.

So I started over today. It was cheaper anyway. The woman who lead me through the re-registration process was wonderful. She said, you can keep your old book.

I think she saw the look on my face....

And then said, or, if it will depress you, hold you back, we'll get rid of it and you will have a new start.

I gladly went with the 2nd option.

So today I get a fresh start. The meeting was about not using a "Get Me Off The Hook" Excuse. I use those every single day, no kidding. Here are some examples:

My mom made home made cake, I can't turn it down, it will hurt her feelings.
Ritters just opened and it is so nice outside, let's go get ice cream.
I had a bad week, let's go out tonight.
I'm tired but want to stay awake to spend time with my husband, I'll drink this Mt. Dew.
Work has free pizza...I mean, it's free, how can I turn that down?

Weight Watchers is not about not eating. That is what I love about it. You can have what you love, but you must plan. When you get rid of rationalizing, excuses, and replace it with planning, you will win the battle.

I was reminded today that my weight loss battle is not won/lost in my stomach, or my theighs, or my rear end;). I will win/loose this battle by using my mind. Our weight loss leader, who is a wonderful, wise woman today said, the most important part of your weight loss journey is the 4 inches between your ears.

Snow, Dove Eggs, and a New Bike

Easter is a wonderful holiday. In the past it has been one of my favorites. A chance to hang out with my family, a happy day at church, and a chance to eat lots of candy:).

I bought some Dove Eggs today and ate way too many of them. I love chocolate, and really anything sweet. You could say I have a sweet tooth.

When the weather was warm I was getting outside a lot. Working in the garden and taking my son on walks. We would go to the Greene (an outdoor mall) just to walk around. But now with the snow I am sitting around a lot more, avoiding the elliptical machine in the basement that is so very convienent.

I sold my bike last week. It was too big for me and I didn't feel comfortable riding it. The exciting thing is now I can buy one that fits me well so my husband and I can start riding together again. We even have a little ride along thing for our son on the back. I have been shopping for helmets.

I haven't been tracking my points. I can't tell you why. I'm just being lazy. I do what I do not want to do and I do not do what I want to do. On the inside I want to feel better, be thinner, healthier....but it is a constant battle and before I know it I have a Dove chocolate in my mouth and am in the drive though at Taco Bell.

I am going to give up regular soda. My first mini-goal.

Enjoy Easter, enjoy time with family, enjoy the brightly decorated churches, happy sermons, and little girls in their pretty new Easter dresses. Enjoy the social time and the celebration. Remember what you really like about holidays. And you will make it through.

Please pray for me. I feel very disheartened.

Two in One Day

I didn't weigh in this week. I decided my heart and my little, itsy-bitsy bit of self esteem that I had couldn't take it. I knew I would show a gain so I didn't do it.

I told my husband on Thursday that I didn't think I could handle it. He sighed, was frustrated (I could tell), but didn't say anything to try and convince me to go. I'm glad I didn't go.

But the weekend went badly. I was going to be so so super good so that this next week I could handle a weigh in.

I'll go Saturday, I must! I will track my points starting tomorrow. I must!

If there is anyone that is reading this that has thought, I don't need to track my points. Let me tell you, you are wrong! This is my 4th or so time on on WW and this is my 14 week and I have only lost a few of those weeks.

I can answer almost any question about WW. I can tell you the points value for almost any food. I can give you tips and encouragement and advice. But I gain weight all the time because I don't track my points.

I'll keep you up-to-date!

By the way, has anyone tracked points from evening to afternoon (rather than morning to night)?

Eat Your Heart Out Superman

I had a full day today. I was up earlier than I wanted to be with the little one, but he smiled and giggles and rolled around our bed so I wasn't in a grumpy mood for very long.

I decided to skip church and have a relaxing day at home. I quickly changed my mind and got Mason and I ready for first service. I felt like Jason wanted me there and wanted to honor that. I'm glad I went.

We have been discussing community in church. Not churchy, tired, surfacy community, REAL community. Community that is available when you need it, community that is loving, in your face, nagging, annoying, full of grace community. The community we all long for but for some reason are scared to live out.

I'm glad I went.

Today's lesson was on the power that we hold as believers. We talked about how we, as children wanted to be superheros (I wanted to be rich and skinny, I don't think that is a super power). We talked about how we dreamed of flying and leaping over buildings and helping people in some crazy way. We talked about how Jesus healed the blind, raised poeple from the dead, made the lame walk, fed the 5000.

Jesus was a superhero.

Then, we went over verses that I have heard a 100 times before, but never really thought about. Dave talked about how we have all the powers that Jesus had on earth, more so in fact. He (Jesus) said that we could do more than he had done because of the Spirit dwelling inside of us, if we only had faith.

Eat Your Heart Out Superman.

So....what is wrong then?

All around me people are sad, depressed, angry, disappointed, hurt, sick, dying. More so, people are dull. We are living safe, normal, non-superman lives.

I myself am so wrapped up in my weight issues, the battle of the bulge (the bulge is winning), that I forget about everything else.

I forget about Jesus and what he really wants us to do.

So, how do we experience superhuman powers?
We get closer to Jesus.
How do we get closer to Jesus?
We serve others.

WHAT?!?

We serve others.
Phillipians 2:3-7 ...consider others better than yourselves...made himself nothing, taking the very nature of a servant.

My friends, strangers, weight loss buddies. I hope you are all still reading, whether believers or not, I hope you are all still reading.

Want to get over your own problems? Want to see some amazing, unexplainable things happen? What to be a superhero?

Serve others.